Aloha! I’m Melanie. Welcome to my Patreon project.
Patreon is where you’ll find me writing about the oneness oracle cards, books and journals I’m designing; current Master of Arts (Writing) degree; and future PhD.
At the moment John + Annie Carter, Dad, hubby, Louise Moriarty and Naomi Jansson are my core support team. They provide endless love and attention to whatever I’m working on.
The Short Version
We are surrounded by change seekers. They’re hard to miss. And yet, there is, for oneness folk, a unique umwelt – a way of experiencing – that just isn’t captured by dualistic and nondualistic perspectives.
We don’t see life as a journey or feel pain as a problem. What is going on for us is not reflected in conventional narratives. So, let’s do something about that!
The Whole Story
I’m a lover, a discoverer and kaleidoscopic juggler. While the rest of the world (appears to) seek evidence within and between all things, I allow my invitation into chiasmatic and acausal space.
I trust the world is what it is as a function of all-that-is. Something I like to call ‘the Natural Explanation’. Not in that dualistic, ‘this-will-change-the-world-and-make-it-a-better-place’ kind of way, but in a reality-is-already-telling-us-it’s-true kind of way. And I’m not the only one.
There are bits and pieces on the Internet, in shamanic spaces and cledons that tell me we are here and have been here for some time. Yes, most of this existed for me way before I read anyone else’s take on it. Yes, I am seeking it out in academia via ontological and cosmological dialectics. No, I am not trying to change the world.
It is as if I am collecting evidence for something I cannot fathom^. As if my insight on the cosmology of oneness is finding a language beyond my own experience and proposing itself as the basis of my (future) PhD. I say all this tentatively not because I am unsure of myself or my intention but as a lived experience of the “I don’t know” reality.
The “I Don’t Know” Reality
I don’t know in advance exactly what I’m being asked to do or formulate. I only know what it appears to be in this moment and this moment and this. There’s no fixed address for now. No absolute goal or eventual end, just as there was no concrete beginning. Except, perhaps, for those who see such things. Or when I am asked to speak such things. So I undertake this project in the same spirit with which I do all things – as a child of the universe who is simply present to what-is.
The First Things People Ask Me
- But how do you get anything done?
- How do you maintain friendships (without a sense of loyalty and quid pro quo)?
- How do you make money, pay your bills and hold down a job?
These are usually the first questions I’m asked when I talk about how I live in the “I Don’t Know” reality. I guess it’s quite shocking at first, to meet someone who really doesn’t end any sentence with because it will make life better or because it’s for the highest good or because I’m part of the solution. Everyone else seems to have a reason for doing what they do or believing what they believe. Very few of us actually trust what-is without any need for proof or end goals. Very few of us seem to be simply present.
What People Really Want To Know
After they’ve settled down and figured out that it’s not a trick, or a religion or anything else they’re used to, I get the next big three questions:
- How did you get that way?
- Can you teach me?
- What do you charge?
Inevitably, people want to know how I can change them. But that’s not what I do, although it might seem that way sometimes. Being present or doing what you’re told or however you want to put it, is not focused on verbs. There’s no sense of what is being done or who is doing it. There is only really the moment. I can talk about this more on Patreon.
What People Think They Want
It turns out, people I encounter want to know how to live in the moment as it is until they realise that means living in the moment. For them, living in the moment is a means to an end. It’s meant to make it easier for them to get what they want. It’s meant to control the flow of resources and smooth the bumps of life. Whereas the I don’t know reality has no goals or outcomes.
For some reason, this is perceived as a threat to everything they hold dear. People need their belief in suffering, blame, hatred, fear, and control over other people, themselves and the world. In other words, when people understand what living in the moment entails they’re afraid they’ll have to “give up” the power to create, change, improve, direct and know anything at all.
There is a lot more going on here than I can say without talking to you directly. What this means to you, in your language, in your cosmology, will be different to what it means to me. That’s where writing on Patreon comes in.
Conversations With My Patrons on Patreon
Instead of offering a one-size-fits-all approach, I have found there are many ways to answer the frequently asked questions about oneness. I do this already by having so many different websites and blogs each offering a unique perspective on how to encounter this cosmology. Patreon will suit those who want to feel as if they’re contributing to the project while accessing that ongoing conversation made possible in comments and video chats.
^I got this from Deborah Levy’s Things I Don’t Want To Know, another random reflection of what it is to live like me.